No hard feelings.

My PW group had its very first brawl, which was coincidentally a public one today. Half way through our OP dry run, we started yelling at each other across the classroom. Ms Tan took cover while the class looked on in awe and eventually ended up giggling because it did seem funny. After months and months of keeping quiet, everyone finally exploded because we were all on the verge on imploding.

The way my PW group works, it’s one of a kind. We split the work and eventually get it compiled online all the time. We’ve only had 1 out-of-school meeting this year, with majority of the very few meetings being online, during breaks or consultation. I’m fine with it since it actually does work out, but the problem here is that we don’t communicate. All was fine till it gradually became a 1 man show and I don’t see why it should be like that. Aren’t we all equally empowered to give suggestions and make decision?

You have to stop defending yourself and putting people down all the time, because things don’t work that way. I don’t exactly agree with Ms Tan’s every decision, but hey, she was once an assessor. If you want your marks, then do what she wants instead of pointlessly refuting every god-damned thing she says. And for the record, she’s hell right about our slides being mediocre.

No hard feelings though. Months from now, we’ll look back and laugh about it.

Dear Mum,

Movie plan failed, so Graci, Ly, Eileen and I ended up browsing books and pigging out. I got myself two new novels, which means no more time for Times Magazine. We had Fish N Co express which was heavenly. I don’t mean relatively heavenly compared to the bread, bread and more bread I’ve been having; IT IS GOOD.

An elongated fish with a final touch of mayonnaise, Mr Seadog! We also had fish n chips, fish nuggets, and a very orgasmic FISH CHOWDER!! It was good stuff so we got ourselves another cup

It was so good, you forget it’s sinful.

Exert with caution.

I’ve always believed in the freedom of speech. While we are sometimes (and sadly) restricted by societal expectations, I’m no confirmist. Don’t expect anything more than the minimum from me when it comes to something I dislike, please. I have my reasons but if you must think otherwise, there’s nothing I can (or will) do.

People today lack emotional intelligence terribly. We practise democracy not idiocy so think before you speak. It’s alright if something’s constructive albeit offensive, but it’s not if it’s offensive and redundant. You were really blunt today and it caught me by surprise. No offense taken because I don’t care anymore – Like I’ve said, I won’t let it get me down.

Today was a terrible day at school. I got so lost during Chem, and I’m sorry Titus I got agitated. Physics was okay if I didn’t forget my notes. Then was the first break of the day and I hate it when the canteen is so packed. Not to mention the activities that followed thereafter.

If life was this easy, there’d be no forsakers.

A few months more.

I did try to make things work, but it’s simply not where I want to be anymore. Truth be told, it has never been and I don’t know why I even stepped in to start with. I tried to take my first step out, but got advised against it; They say I have to think about my future and the years ahead. I know that’s true so I’ll keep holding on. You won’t get me down. After all, I’m halfway through so a little more and I’d be done.

Now that I know where I want to be, the doors aren’t open anymore. I knew this day would come. Hey there, don’t make the same mistake as me.

Shouldn’t have.

Hi friend, can I be myself in front of you? Or are you going to judge me.

I hate it when I’m feeling down and people don’t take me seriously. Just so you know, I’m not your 24/7 banter-mate.

I’ve thought through it and the only way out now is momentary escapism. Don’t worry, don’t ask. I’ll be fine, one week.

When even dreams and fantasy fail you

Today I sat by my new, big and awesome study table to complete one chapter of econs, including the dreadful tutorial. Because Ly says I should study first and then reward myself with one episode of BOF.

But little did I know that episode 13 sucked to the core and was one hell of a heartbreaker and dream dasher So it seems that they all grew up in episode 13 and scenes shifted from the chirpy school environment with reckless fun to the dreadful streets of Macau where Sicao meets several crooks. Not to mention the cold shoulder she receives from the love of her life. Everything probably happens for a reason, but I hate sad stories. I want happy endings.

I’m starting to find him real charming, cause he’s so sweet and awesome to Sicao. And he plays the violin. *Pokes Eileen and Elissa*

Now even something that I seek solace in turns out to be devastating. I scanned through episode 14 and 15 and it seems… just as sad I always knew growing up sucked, just like how I kinda hate the way life is now. Not to mention that school starts tomorrow.

I hope things will get better next half of the year, but I don’t know where to begin. I have a few more hours to wallow in self-pity. Good night earthlings, and we all need a little love to get us through.

If only I knew,

I didn’t turn to you to hear you lash out at me. You can’t judge a man for his actions without knowing his reasons. But more than often, nobody really cares. Because it’s easier to stamp a label than to even bother asking, easier to say something nasty than defend.

I really, really regret. But I can’t turn back time. And my dream is now a nightmare.

XiangYing 09!

These are the slightly overdued photos from CDS concert, which was really fantastic. The last play which Edwen acted in was so relevant to us graduates. Years from now, would your friends still remember your birthday? Would they take time off their busy schedule? Or would they tell you that all along, life has been so hard with you around because you were always better than them?

4k’08! Look at Edk’s face

Lihan taking the priority seat…

Lihan, how can you do this to pregnant lady!

My favourite shot of the night ^^

Not all the photos are here, so get them from me if you want.

1st term of school has ended, so it’s time to start thinking. Because up till now, I don’t know where I’m heading but I know I’m screwing some things up

Let’s end with something light:

Been sometime since I bought new clothes. I’ll go indulge in Gossip girls instead…